fickle.

the pitter-patter of little feet.. something I'm so afraid of never hearing.

Considering DH and I are trying to conceive, I might be blogging about our issues and hopefully soon to be triumphs. I'll probably create a new blog to keep them separate, but the first post about it will be here. Prepare for some possible TMI.

I have PCOS and am extremely irregular. For instance, last year Flo only came around twice. TWICE. With everything else we had on our plate last year (unemployment, school, crazy wedding planning, mom getting sick and having emergency surgery, rushed courthouse wedding, offer to move to Texas, three weeks to pack and move on said offer..) I couldn't go see a specialist. Luckily now we are better off and have to resources for me to get help and hopefully fix this problem. I get really emotional when I think about it being my fault that we can't add to our family. I want to give my husband a baby more than anything in this world, and my body just can't do it. I feel like my womanhood has been stripped from me, I feel useless. He doesn't hold any of this against me, he knows that we are in for some rough times on TTC road. It's been a while since we decided "what the heck, lets try for a baby" and nothing. This year started off great! Flo came to visit January-April. Of course the month we decide to go for it, she shies off.. and she hasn't returned. I feel defeated. I'm searching for an OB/GYN in the area and the second I find one I love, I'm making an appointment.

Our exercise regimen seemed to help with bringing Flo back, so tonight we start walking again. Hopefully losing 10-20lbs will bring her back out of hibernation! I'm also going back onto cinnamon capsules, they help regulate insulin levels and has helped bring her back in the past. I'm hoping these natural options will work, I'm not down with having to take more medications than I have to.

So that's where I'm at. Defeated.

:pokes tummy: hey, can you guys please work now?! I would really appreciate it.

Dinner last night!

We met with our loan officer around 6pm and finished up the paperwork to get the house going. I hadn't planned dinner but all that I could think about was Mac & Cheez w/ chik'n nuggets or pizza. I only had one piece of Mac left in the freezer which would definitely not feed me and Mike plus give him a lunch to bring for work. Hmm. Pizza! I went to this place, zpizza a few weeks ago with Lauren and her family. They have 100% organic sauce, offer gluten free dough ANDDDD have daiya mozzarella shreds, plus a shitload of toppings. So off we went.



Roasted garlic, daiya, artichoke hearts, tomatoes and avocado, sprinkled with some s&p and oregano.

It was sooooooooo good! Then we came home and indulged in lemon sorbet. Don't judge me, we were celebrating :]

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It's been a bit.

Been super busy with the house and such :[ anyway! I'm starving so I'm having a big breakfast today.



Ezekial bread with organic crunchy peanut butter and organic banana, with some vanilla chai.

"so yummy! so yummy! there's a party in my tummy!"

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Finally.

The exterior :]

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Oh & for good measure.

Ours.

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It's been a week or so

and things have changed dramatically.

I've lived in little apartments the majority of my adult life. We moved here expecting to live in an apartment for a year, maybe two and move into a home. Until we got a flyer in the mail last week about a new gated community being built. Affordable, yet beautiful homes a mile north of the Tarrant county line. Had the homes been built a mile south, they'd easily be $50-100k more expensive. We made an appointment, still not expecting anything except insight. We went through all the details, Mike alone makes too much money to qualify for the $15,000 new homeowners grant. We kept pushing on because we liked the community and wanted to see if we could fit it in our budget, being a one salary family we have to keep our budget in line. He checked our credit, etc. (surprisingly mine was 2pts better than Mike's!) and we were pre-approved.

He took us first to the smallest option, 3bed/2bath/2CG/2 floors/1400 sq ft. It was nice, we liked it but the rooms were small, the bathrooms (especially the master) were TINY, the kitchen was the size of our apt kitchen and there was no formal dining room. He marked out the pricing for it and including taxes it was $100 more/month than we pay for our apt. NOT BAD AT ALL. Mike piped up (which he never does) and said "I'd like to look at the 'Blanco' (the step up) if possible, I think we can definitely afford it." Our rep said "I don't want to show it to you unless you really think you can do it, because I promise you're going to fall in love with it and never return to the one we're in. It's got everything you want and is our most popular floorplan." He drew up the pricing for that and it was only a $75 difference/month from the one we were standing in. Mike said we could do it "as long as Angel stops her Target habit, and we don't go out to eat as often." and the rep started describing it.. he started off with "Island Kitchen." SOLD, LET'S GO! hahaha. He really didn't even have to further his details. Off we went in his Mercedes (leather seats, the smell made me gag.) to the Blanco. There were two lots available, one for July 26th move in and one for September 30th. We pulled up to the one already built and ready for July 26th and there was a SOLD sign on it. He still let us look around, take pictures and decide.

The second we walked up to it we knew it was what we wanted. He handed me the key and let me turn it. It was love at first sight. Get ready for an orgy of pictures. My dumbass forgot to take a picture of the exterior, but I'll update that when we sign all our paperwork after July 4th weekend.

What our home will look like!

I figured I'd be nice and put them in a picasa album instead of having to scroll my entire blog to lurk them.

Dinner last night..

made me feel like a kid again. We went out shopping and didn't have plans for dinner, so when we got home we just wanted fast dinner.




Grilled cheez (daiya cheddar) and chik'n nuggets w/ veganaise + ketchup.

So simple and soooo good.

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