Keeping my head up?

The day we discuss our official baby name options, I start cramping. Good sign? Woo! Let's go ovaries! Let's Go!


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master cleanse.

So I was all about doing this master cleanse by the book until this morning.. when I looked in the fridge and saw all of the organic veggies that would be going to waste if I didn't eat them (hubby likes green beans and carrots.. that's about it)

SOOO modified master cleanse. I am going to only drink the lemonade and water, and eat small dinners. I know, I know it defeats the purpose... BUT although I drink as much water as I can [remember to] I'm sure its definitely not as much as I should be drinking, and I'm sure the lemonade with all its yummy enzymes will be much better for me than :coughsweettea: which I drink A LOT of. Once all the organic produce and perishable items are out of the fridge, I will definitely do 10 days straight of JUST the lemonade and water. After the complete cleanse I plan on adding more "raw" foods to my diet, less processed (in fact I want to try and wean myself completely off processed foods.. but we'll see), and drinking only water and fresh fruit and vegetable juices. Speaking of fresh juice, I have to thank my hubby and numerous infomercials for us caving and finally buying a Bullet Express. I LOVE THIS THING! It's first use was to make the fresh lemonade for the master cleanse, but I will be using this thing for EVERYTHING. It will definitely become a staple on our kitchen counter.

So one drink down and I'm a failure. I'm sorry! I just can't say no to fresh organic [read:expensive] produce :[

fickle.

the pitter-patter of little feet.. something I'm so afraid of never hearing.

Considering DH and I are trying to conceive, I might be blogging about our issues and hopefully soon to be triumphs. I'll probably create a new blog to keep them separate, but the first post about it will be here. Prepare for some possible TMI.

I have PCOS and am extremely irregular. For instance, last year Flo only came around twice. TWICE. With everything else we had on our plate last year (unemployment, school, crazy wedding planning, mom getting sick and having emergency surgery, rushed courthouse wedding, offer to move to Texas, three weeks to pack and move on said offer..) I couldn't go see a specialist. Luckily now we are better off and have to resources for me to get help and hopefully fix this problem. I get really emotional when I think about it being my fault that we can't add to our family. I want to give my husband a baby more than anything in this world, and my body just can't do it. I feel like my womanhood has been stripped from me, I feel useless. He doesn't hold any of this against me, he knows that we are in for some rough times on TTC road. It's been a while since we decided "what the heck, lets try for a baby" and nothing. This year started off great! Flo came to visit January-April. Of course the month we decide to go for it, she shies off.. and she hasn't returned. I feel defeated. I'm searching for an OB/GYN in the area and the second I find one I love, I'm making an appointment.

Our exercise regimen seemed to help with bringing Flo back, so tonight we start walking again. Hopefully losing 10-20lbs will bring her back out of hibernation! I'm also going back onto cinnamon capsules, they help regulate insulin levels and has helped bring her back in the past. I'm hoping these natural options will work, I'm not down with having to take more medications than I have to.

So that's where I'm at. Defeated.

:pokes tummy: hey, can you guys please work now?! I would really appreciate it.

Dinner last night!

We met with our loan officer around 6pm and finished up the paperwork to get the house going. I hadn't planned dinner but all that I could think about was Mac & Cheez w/ chik'n nuggets or pizza. I only had one piece of Mac left in the freezer which would definitely not feed me and Mike plus give him a lunch to bring for work. Hmm. Pizza! I went to this place, zpizza a few weeks ago with Lauren and her family. They have 100% organic sauce, offer gluten free dough ANDDDD have daiya mozzarella shreds, plus a shitload of toppings. So off we went.



Roasted garlic, daiya, artichoke hearts, tomatoes and avocado, sprinkled with some s&p and oregano.

It was sooooooooo good! Then we came home and indulged in lemon sorbet. Don't judge me, we were celebrating :]

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It's been a bit.

Been super busy with the house and such :[ anyway! I'm starving so I'm having a big breakfast today.



Ezekial bread with organic crunchy peanut butter and organic banana, with some vanilla chai.

"so yummy! so yummy! there's a party in my tummy!"

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Finally.

The exterior :]

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