Thursday, July 8, 2010


the pitter-patter of little feet.. something I'm so afraid of never hearing.

Considering DH and I are trying to conceive, I might be blogging about our issues and hopefully soon to be triumphs. I'll probably create a new blog to keep them separate, but the first post about it will be here. Prepare for some possible TMI.

I have PCOS and am extremely irregular. For instance, last year Flo only came around twice. TWICE. With everything else we had on our plate last year (unemployment, school, crazy wedding planning, mom getting sick and having emergency surgery, rushed courthouse wedding, offer to move to Texas, three weeks to pack and move on said offer..) I couldn't go see a specialist. Luckily now we are better off and have to resources for me to get help and hopefully fix this problem. I get really emotional when I think about it being my fault that we can't add to our family. I want to give my husband a baby more than anything in this world, and my body just can't do it. I feel like my womanhood has been stripped from me, I feel useless. He doesn't hold any of this against me, he knows that we are in for some rough times on TTC road. It's been a while since we decided "what the heck, lets try for a baby" and nothing. This year started off great! Flo came to visit January-April. Of course the month we decide to go for it, she shies off.. and she hasn't returned. I feel defeated. I'm searching for an OB/GYN in the area and the second I find one I love, I'm making an appointment.

Our exercise regimen seemed to help with bringing Flo back, so tonight we start walking again. Hopefully losing 10-20lbs will bring her back out of hibernation! I'm also going back onto cinnamon capsules, they help regulate insulin levels and has helped bring her back in the past. I'm hoping these natural options will work, I'm not down with having to take more medications than I have to.

So that's where I'm at. Defeated.

:pokes tummy: hey, can you guys please work now?! I would really appreciate it.


  1. good luck girlie! two months TTC here too... lots of baby thoughts for both of us!

  2. I'm sure you've heard this advice already, but it's good stuff: don't fret about it! It took us almost a year and a half and a miscarriage before we got Baby Alice, but she is everything we could have possibly hoped for in a child. I got so worked up, but it seemed that within a month of saying "I give up!" then ta-da! Positive!

  3. Also, hubby is saying adios to the Air Force, and we're buying a house in Austin. We'll be Texans too in the spring!

  4. Jilly dont feel of my friends were trying for a good 7 months...

  5. Once my period comes back I'm sure we'll have no problem with it. We had a miscarriage in '08, so we know its possible for use to get PG. It's just my PCOS is causing me not to ovulate, so it SUCKS.